Day 365: How the Hell Did I Get Here?

You may ask yourself, well, how did I get here?

Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground
You may ask yourself, what is that beautiful house?
You may ask yourself, where does that highway lead to?
You may ask yourself, am I right, am I wrong?
You may say to yourself, my god, what have I done?

Time isn’t holding us, time isn’t after us
Time isn’t holding us, time doesn’t hold you back
Time isn’t holding us, time isn’t after us
Time isn’t holding us…    (Talking Heads)

Day 365! 

I have never accomplished a goal of this magnitude in my life.  The best part of this goal is that there is no tangible reward.  There is no certificate of achievement, no medallion to hang around my neck, no plaque for the wall.  All of these words did not land me a book deal or a magazine byline.  No one is knocking on my door trying to present me with a giant check. No handshakes, no slaps on the back, no “That’a Girl.”

The craziest thing is that I am okay with that.  I thought I wanted to turn into some famous writer and get discovered this year.  What I have learned is that in the process of writing, I have discovered myself.  Who I was 365 days ago is not the same person that I am today.  Oh, I liked that girl– she was smart and sassy.  She had a good sense of humor and boy, did she love to tell stories!  But this new me!  She is a woman to be reckoned! Oh she still maintains the qualities of old, maybe a bit more polished in some regards, but she has also developed into someone new.  This new me has developed a sense of calm, a new feeling of confidence, and unbeknownst to any of us–  she found moxie!

To you, my beloved readers, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.  You have helped me grow into a woman I never knew I could be.  I always thought “things” were going to make me happy.  Even though my father time and again said, “He who dies with the most things doesn’t win because dead is dead,” I always thought I needed to strive to have possessions to prove to people I was happy, to prove to people I was a success.  I now realize that happiness and success are intrinsic.  I have swam in the ocean of growth, and have been satiated beyond words.  I have found real happiness through writing, and to be honest, I feel both honored and humbled that I was able to entertain so many people for an entire year– a true success!

Even though I have one more day until I have officially written for an entire year, I am going to share my personal recap.

Since January 7, 2012 when this blog went live:
I have had a total of 25, 536 views
1,022 comments
637 views on my most busiest day

Since February 25, 2012 (It wouldn’t give me stats before this date)
I have been visited by people from 101 different countries.

I have 277 followers via email, and a great deal more who just follow in their Reader.

THE TOP FIVE

My home page/archives has been hit 8,415 times.  Now remember, when you go to the home page, you can read ten blogs!  I think my stats may be skewed by this fact, not that I find my statistics to be trivial, I just thought I would mention it.

2. Day 318: Haunted by the Magic Mirror has been hit 1,172 times.  Thank you Freshly Pressed for that one!

3. About and Titles has been hit 403 times, which I find completely hilarious!  People want to know about me?  Lil’ Ole’ me!?!

4. Day 148: I Have the Statue of Liberty in My House has been hit 158 times.

5. Day 163: A Tribute to My Dad has been hit 152 times.

This post is not a swan song.  This post is not a goodbye.  I will continue to write, and hopefully you will continue to read.  This love affair cannot stop!

Dear 8 pound 6 ounce Baby Jesus, someday I hope this is me!

Dear 8 pound 6 ounce Baby Jesus, someday I hope this is me!

P.S.  I have a little confession.  Maybe it’s because I have seen Happy Gilmore one too many times, but I really do want a big check– a really, really big check.

 

 

 

 

Day 344: Bring Back the Old Format of Freshly Pressed!

Dear WordPress,

deuceWhat the Deuce?

No more Freshly Pressed page?  No more titles and sixteen pictures to entice the reader?  No more chance to open up and see yourself among one of the chosen?   It has been demoted to a link in the Reader feed?

This is a travesty, Ladies and Gentlemen!  This is an absolute travesty!

I get why you did it.  People who visit the Freshly Pressed page are less likely to click the button to get them to the older Freshly Pressed posts.  Hence, if someone missed a few days of checking said page, they may have missed some amazing writing.  This new way allows for all of the posts to continuously scroll, the way they do in the Reader.  Scrolling down, in less than a minute, I was able to find my Freshly Pressed blog that was written 3 weeks and 2 days ago.  Who knows how many “older” pages I would have had to go through to find it?

That's me up in the corner!

That’s me up in the corner!

As great as it was to find myself so quickly, I think all WordPress bloggers would agree that to open the Freshly Pressed page and see yourself as one of sixteen– only sixteen— is a Herculean accomplishment worth striving for!  Freshly Pressed was the mecca of the blogosphere!  It was the pilgrimage we all start off trying to walk, but only a select few can be “the chosen” who make it to the Promised Land.   And to be the chosen means something!

So you are telling me no other blogger will ever have the chance to take a picture of themselves on the Freshly Pressed page?  No other blogger will have the chance to watch their blog move position over the course of three or four days?  No one else will be able to click on that “Freshly Pressed” button and say, “There I am!  I have made it!  I have arrived!”

I do hope you reconsider this drastic change.  New is not always better.  Change is not always good.  For the love of everything sacred, bring back the original Freshly Pressed format!  Allow the future Freshly Pressed to be able to bask in the glory of their achievement by being able to stare at their blog on this wonderful page on the computer screen.

Yours Truly,

A Concerned Blogger

Day 321: Thank You!

Yesterday, I ranted about stress and anxiety.  I wrote this message to God:  “So God, umm, if you are listening, I’ll stand back.  Can you get some C4 and blow a hole in the wall?”  I felt like I was in a room without windows.  I needed sunlight, I needed to breathe.

After I left my blog, I really did say a prayer to God.  I prayed for something, anything to remind me that life is not all bad.  Last time I felt this awful and prayed, a $37.00 refund check showed up in the mail because I had overpaid a bill.  I know God has a way of sending me signs.

Well, this morning, Thanksgiving morning here in the United States, I woke feeling better because of the anticipation of having a fun afternoon with my family.  I decided to blog early, so I could relax and enjoy my day.  I came downstairs to the computer and when I got to my WordPress home page, I had hits from all over the world for a blog I wrote 3 days ago.  After a few seconds of confusion, my hands began to shake, my breathing quickened, and my stomach clenched.

Could it be?  Could it be?

Shaking, I moved the mouse to the Freshly Pressed tab, the page refreshed, and there it was.  My blog had been Freshly Pressed.  I screamed–  a good scream, a happy scream, a I-Have-A-Lot-To-Be-Thankful-For scream.

That’s me up in the corner!

On this Thanksgiving morning here in the States, I would like to give thanks:

1. Thank you Freshly Pressed for recognizing my blog.

2. Thank you blogging family and friends for the wonderful support I am receiving.

3. Thank you to my real family and friends for supporting me in my 366 day goal.

Yes, today I am thankful for life.  It doesn’t suck.  It is good!

Happy Thanksgiving to my American counterparts.  As to everyone else in the world, I hope the sun is shining and you are enjoying your day!