LOST: MOJO If Found- Please Return Immediately

They said it would happen, but I didn’t believe them.  They said once I finished “The Year of the Blog,” once I completed 366 straight days of writing, I would write less, I would peter out, and my blog posts would become more and more infrequent until I wasn’t writing at all.

I scoffed!  Of course, I always planned on taking the pressure off and allowing myself the freedom to NOT write every day.  For a year, all I thought about was fodder for my blog.  All I thought about was how I could work any experience into a blog post.  At times, I felt enslaved to my computer and my words.

The first few weeks, I could not figure out how NOT to write every day.  I was so in-tuned with viewing life as a landscape of writing ideas, I did not know how to turn it off.  I methodically continued to write every day.

However, one Sunday in January, (I think I was a little hung over), I made the deliberate decision not to write.  That evening, when I lay in bed and thought about the day, I felt both liberated and guilty.  My mind had finally shut off enough that I had finally given myself the permission not to write, but at the same time, I felt shame that I had not pushed myself to try and come up with a topic and write.

Over the course of the past five months, I have written regularly at least three times a week.  I told myself I had to keep writing.  I have some friends who are also aspiring writers, and although they are full of talent, they rarely write.  They do not have time, they say, but I know, it is not about having time, it is about making time.  It is about freeing the mind and allowing the imagination to run wild.

In the last few weeks, though, I have found myself in what could be considered nothing less that a conundrum.  I have lost my mojo.  I have found myself idea-less.  I am wordless.  I am mute.  Nothing inspires me.  As I go through my day, nothing jumps out as the topic for a blog post.  Not even my stats are an inspiration, something I spent a good part of last year obsessing over.  I have lost my mojo, and I do not know what to do.  Part of me thought I would be writing the next great American novel this summer, but I do not have enough ideas to try that either.

To those who have been faithful readers, this is my apology.  I am going to try and come back.  I feel an emptiness inside right now, and I know it is from not using my imagination and allowing the words to flow.

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6 thoughts on “LOST: MOJO If Found- Please Return Immediately

  1. I know exactly where you’re coming from. I began writing outdoor humor, and it was easy in that I incorporated past published articles along with newly written. But now that all my stored inventory has been used, and I’m dependent on new material, it’s getting tougher all the time. Now I find what am writing is becoming serious and sometimes downright demeaning. Everyone vents from time to time, but not in an outdoor humor blog. I hope I’ve gotten back to basics in my last post.

  2. I think what you are going through is normal. You just need a rest. You will come back. It’s interesting. I blog every day too. My goal is also a year. I am almost done. Today was day 321. I have also decided I will continue but not commit to every day. I am already conflicted and even a bit guilty that I am thinking of not writing everyday. Your post today has really resonated with me.

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