The Daily Post suggested this prompt today: “Go back in time to an event you think could have played out differently for you. Let alternate history have its moment: tell us what could, would, or should have happened.”
When I read this idea this morning, I thought about accepting the challenge. How would my life have played out had I not dropped out of Miami University? I probably would have settled in and made a niche for myself. I would have graduated college at 22, not 25. I would have studied and worked; I would have frolicked and carried on. I would have forgotten that I had wanted something different for myself. I would have become comfortable.
Comfortable is happy. It is relaxed and agreeable. It is satisfied and convenient, but it is not happy. Would I have settled for comfortable instead of striving for happiness?
To be honest, to even entertain the idea of an alternative path seems ludicrous. I chose the direction of my life. I weighed all alternatives and I made decisions that I believed would not make me comfortable. I made decisions that I believed would make me happy.
At the time, it was not easy. People scoffed! You, they said. You are a college dropout! I felt pressure. I know people felt I was making a mockery out of my life. I worried people were right. Was it possible I would be a failure at life because I did not graduate from Miami University within four years? Would I go to my grave a loser shunned by her peers?
As much as I feared standing on my own two feet, I knew I had to do it. I had no choice; I had to explore
I cannot say what could, would, or should have happened. I do know I do not regret my decision. I chose to live deliberately. I humbly took my curtain call and I walked away. I stepped off of the paved path onto the patches of grass. I found sunshine where I did not know it existed.