I really believed that I pissed off Karma. Maybe I did. However, last night, she was willing to throw me a bone.
I went to a fundraiser last night for a friend’s daughter’s sports team. You know the kind: twenty bucks to get in the door– food, draft beer, side boards, and raffles. Usually, I justify spending a hundred dollars or more because “it’s for the kids,” and I like to gamble and drink, so it is easy to convince myself to spend money.
I went to this fundraiser last night with a hundred in my pocket that I was willing to lose. I played ten on a $2.00 fifty/fifty board that paid two-hundred. I played $5.00 on a five dollar fifty/fifty board that paid four spots. I realized that a lottery ticket side board was available. For $5.00, I got a 1 in 20 chance of winning $100.00 in lottery tickets. Too good to be true? Absolutely! This board was available five times; I needed to play all five boards.
I played and played and lost. I picked number 53; the winning number was 52! I picked number 88; the winning number was 89! GGGGrrrrrrr! Karma was screwing with me, one number difference every time, but I didn’t care; I was at a fundraiser, and I wanted to spend my money!
I don’t know if it was my total disregard for Karma or my willingness to give, but some cosmic shift happened. My luck changed, and so did everyone’s at my table. I won the last “lottery tree,” which actually scored me $70.00 in scratch offs. I put $5.00 into a drawing for ” the amazing prizes”, knowing that it was a donation, but I won a night in a hotel, a restaurant gift certificate, and two bottles of wine! My friends won money, corn hole boards, and a 42-inch flat screen TV!
I woke this morning feeling lighter. My life has had some curve balls. I have had some financially disturbing moments in the last two weeks. I have cried. I have felt sorrow. I have lamented my bad luck. Yet yesterday, time stopped and goodness rained. I have been reminded that life is good and that bad things happen. I have been reminded that when I feel the most desperate, if I am willing to wait, I get a sign.
One with the universe. One with the universe. Shalom. Namaste. Peace.